Untuk mu :)

^^

Bagaimana hendak mengerti cantik?
Tanya diriku senyum senyum
Jawapan yang ku sudah tahu lama dahulu
Cuma termain kerna jiwa ku nakal

Hatiku menyebut;
Cantik itu dari idea
Dan idea itu tidak zahir
Mengenal kehalusan bukanlah impresi pertama
Tentu jutaan teka teki dan jawapan   

Kemudian ku nampak mu
setelah ribuan impresi
sejak pertama dan kini
kecantikan mu susah kufahami

Aku yang bergerak teguh
Kini sedikit goyah dan celaru
Ekspresi mu buat ku kelu keliru
Ekstasi yang buat ku haru biru

Ku bagai terselam dalam lautan mimpi
Terbang dan tenggelam dalam hakikat yang sama
Semua akibat aura kehadiran mu ini
Jauh dekat tetap juga rasa bersama

Ku kata ku tak mahu jatuh dahulu
Tapi terjatuh ku kini dan berkali kali
Acap kali tersungkur pedih tidak terperi
Namun kau hadir mengubati hati ku
Bukti kau pemberian dari Ilahi

Ku cinta mu , oh cinta hati ku
Sucikan hati ku wahai permata hati ku
Kau cahaya , pemberian dari Ilahi
Moga Cinta ku pada mu suatu hidayah yang indah
  bukan lah istidraj yang menyeleweng yang membuta
 
inshaAllah




Terima kasih ya Allah swt dan juga
bidadari hati ku Nurdia Natasha kerna sudi menerima ku <3 ~

: )

fallen again

    ~  =)   ~

o little princess
my beloved of only
i watch u from afar
so far that i longed
but u lingers always
in this sacred garden
like beautiful butterfly 
in my puzzled hearts

o dearest of mine
let u play freely in this world
to see you getting far
to see you d forget
and how it hurts for every inch you and me
but i never bound you :)
never i would
and never i could
to put a string between us
due strings give scars
and for the love for me you
i will never hurt

o my lovely you
how my breath lack because of you
my focus blur never content
an ache of every time and places
hope prejudice and worriness
random lunacy that i commit
a sickness of delusional
you are the bane
yet you too the cure of all :)

i cared for you
i really do
and i promised my self
never i do
to let me regret
the care i for you
forever be

for only you i suffer
only you i smiled

^^

hehe ; )

i can be everywhere

if u want me to be : )

^^

Tukang kebun

..Pohon2 kasih itu berputik cinta..

..di atas hati2 yang subur..

..disirami senyuman serba hangat..

..dibasahi rasa rindu amat..

..benih kasih itu asyik..

..bila mekar ia menawan cantik..

..siapa menyangka tidak tersedar..

..rupanya menyedut khasiat hati..

..jadinya hati ini kering rapuh..

..akar2nya jauh tercengkam..

..sejauh luas hati ini sendiri..

..buat diri lemah terbungkam..

..buat jiwa mati sendiri..

..bisa pohon itu mengalir..

..meracun segala pelusuk jiwa..

..menawar hati suatu ekstasi..

..tanpa sedar jiwa dinodai..

..Tapi takdir dia tersenyum..

..kebetulan dialah si tukang kebun..

..sang penunggu gelap jiwa sendiri..

..penjaga hati si pencabut cinta..

..lantas dicantas segala asyik..

..pedih rasa , sakitnya sangat..

..merentap kasih bukanlah senang..

..peritnya itu bukan kepalang..

..akar mesti dicabut sekali..

..menyentap segala isi hati..

..merentap paksa air mata bergenang..

..lalu tinggalkan luka yang x hilang..

..parut parut terkesan yang abadi..

..sesudah hati dijaga rapi..

..mengubati kesan yang dilukai..

..perlahan perlahan subur kembali..

..perlahan perlahan senyum kembali..

..musim itu datang lagi..

..dikala dingin sejuk sepi..

..kemudian angin hangat kembali..

..si tukang kebun tersenyum sendiri..

..senyuman penuh makna..

..kerana..

..dia mengerti..

..benih cinta telah datang lagi..

: )

; )

****

The sky is blue
it is so pretty
the moon is white
it is so pretty

Ur smiles are red
it is so pretty
ur face is pink
it is so pretty

ur love is hot
it is so pretty
ur smile is warm
it is so pretty

ur grace is astounding
it is so pretty
ur moves undeniable
it is so pretty

ur laughs a music
it is so pretty
ur voice a rainbow
it is so prety

what u do always is so pretty
what u emote always is so pretty
everything u do is so pretty
pretty is u is well define u
and always of always in my ugly hearts
u are n only u are
the u
are the most pretty =)

One of my fav all time games ^^

Eyes On Me

Faye Wong

Whenever I sang my songs
On the stage on my own
Whenever I said my words
Wishing they would be heard

I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If a frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did your ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling so there your are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If a frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer




hahhaha ttbe teringat kesah chenta 2 watak dlm game ni ^^
sweet gila, men game pun feeling2. :P

:..(

sory..i dumb..
im sad..
i dont understand things..
i hav no regrets..
just got alots of memories..
sad memories that i tried to forget..
almost forget..
is easy to forget..
is more easy to remember back..
reminiscences..
why..
y the happy memories also seems sad now..
pls memories..
dun u all be sad..
i dun wan to be sad..
because sadness hate me..
cause sadness hurt me..
and they are not my friends..
and i need friends..
to makes me happy..
oh im sory friends..
i am greedy :( ..
looking back..
i dun wan to be greedy..
i dun wan to be selfish..
pls go away frens..
i dun want to be self-centered..
im not sincere..
im not needed..
my paranoia..
pls go away..
u exclude me from the world..
am im blaming u for the sadness?
im not..
do i?..
pls dont..
pls quiet..
im not crazy..
im just sad..
sad be mu fren?
:)
will u?..
thanx.
i m with my sadness..
im happy with it~

:)

I hav heard of a story if why we need to recite al-Quran although
we didnt know the meaning:

:)


There s a father and a child.
A child ask " father y we need to recite the quran although not yet to know the meanings"
The father smiled and reply " dear son, i ll show u but 1st can i ask u a favor?"
The child looks to his father.
"Sure father" and smiled.
"There's a dirty basket used for carrying coal and there s a big bucket there for storing water . Go feel the bucket with water by that river there using the basket . go :) "
The child frown, and looks at he basket.
"But father, the basket is not suitable of carrying water..it got holes..so , i dont think.."
The father smiled" Dear, you will understand it later, but firstly..try do of what is asked u to do ;)"
The child nods and do as what his father instructed him to do.
After a couples of round the child become exhausted and it seems, the basket kept leaking and will never manage to reach the bucket when the time comes for him to pour it to the bucket.

At last, the child surrender.
"Father, im sory..i just..."puff puff" cant fill the water, it is just impossible. sory father"..puff puff.
The father brought him a flask of cool drinking water and he began to drink it.
He then began to caress him with care.
"Son , do u know what u have achieve?"
The son looks to his father eyes and didnt fathom.
"No father, please do tell"
Smiled " Son looks at the basket, what did u see?"
The child looks " Id see nothing.."
"See it again..do u noticed anything different? dear son"
Looking carefully, he replied.
" Accept for the basket become more clean, i do not see anything different"
The father give a soft laugh and he said.
"Exactly son!...the basket is now cleaned ;)... this persona can be said as to reciting the Quran, although its looks like nothing to u my dear one, but the act is a cleansing act ,note this and remember it always. If u do something good, Allah will always rewards u with an unexpected twist ;)"
The child ponder for a while and the give a brightful smile and thanks for the meaningful explanation. The father welcomed him :)


For me ;)

A good person's life will always be tested by Allah.
And He will reward u with unexpected gift for your struggle and hardship :).
But u will always not see the rewards because it is to coincidental.
Look carefully in everywhere of ur life and eventually ull see it :)
Everything that is good comes from Him :D.

example from me ;)

i lost my psp and my handset(stolen)..
but a few month later i got a new high end computer and handset for free..
i didnt noticed this until i do some reminiscence of my life. And i thankful to God for the magnificent ways He had done to me :).

Alhamdulilah and Subhanallah.

;)

I decided to move my poems from my fb to here also. This place, is , as well my vault of hearts ;) where my feelings reside~

once upon a time , the stupid me become careless and fall in love with a girl that was not on his league. Amist of all that , he had wrote a love poem to convey his feeling. @@ that was 1 year ago.
While organizing his pc's documents , he again stumble with the poem he wrote and smile cuz was amaze on how deep and stupidly he had fallen at that time. and so cuz the poem had just be a little meaning to him he would like to share it to his friends :)


here goes :-


When I last hav a thought of u , it is of always..

When I last think of u , I beg myself for not to…

When I last try to exclude u , ur haunting is forever eternal…

When I last not to love u , thus my soul cease from existence..


I like u so I love u so..

U are there when mine is nowhere..

U always here n always yet no..

Do u like me no ?, do u love me so?..


An image of u is soothing yet of pain..

N ur illusion lingers ,is it of torment or vain?..

To my heart will not assails of fear or death..

Yet it falters for the fragments of only the you.


When u are smiling the rains would stop…

Thus u are the rains-stopper, the vain-killer..

For the rains struck to bitter the only heart..

Thus u are the sky-brighter , the heart-serener..


Ur complexness fathom omni-knowledge..

A mind so beautiful any wisdom would pledge..

Ur words a yonder, unthoughtful riddles..

A word of love , all souls fiddles..




Every time I see u, its like falling from the sky..

For when it fall its hard to breath, the lungs would cry..

Sensation exhilarates, every heart pumps rakes..

The fall is long way to crash, it is an eternal wait..

N when it crash , its for only you..

For every last of u, it s a new falling to love..





Enjoy :P

fuh..

knowing her didnt meant to ignored me. is a relief

ARGH!

my body and conscious are very happy~
my minds always wonders try to find an escapism but always
being seduced by the dark void of sadness . foolish minds ~
and at the center , the heart felt excruciating pain~

looks like felt dull for it..the immune system began to work lol ><


oh man..the me is not unified ==

=|

mule dak2 ni ckp gay suke aku . x kot. x sengaje je tu lol.aku pun deny lol. aku cintan cintun kat awek2 je yer. shivers ><
pastu bebrape insiden lucu bersama rakan , telah menyebab kan aku di label sebagai di sukai kanak2 pulak . ok x pe la tu , mke gengster penjenayah cam aku ni pun ade gak bende comel2 nak sayang kan . tehehehe.

skang ni plak.. semut2, kumbang2 rama2 suke sgt dtg kat aku. nak dtg2 xpe, aku da insap.. dah x bunuh da korang2 ni ramai2 =( takut Tuhan murka..tapi x yahlah gigit yer korang2, sakit la , aku time tido mane sedar , komperm aku tepok korang sampai lumat, xpasal je. Behave pls , jgn nakal2 yek pls plssssss x) xmo bunuh korang lg .winks.

smily smile ;)

Its almost six . I heard the azan now , will be going to perform the solah soon.

For certain sumone :) if u read this . i wanted u to be happy, U show me mixed signs , one that contradicts to another.. i think i may understand why u did so.i of all people ,understand u the most ;) . nonetheless ,heard me, that, all i want is u to be happy ,live life happily :). remember, happiness is a choice .and i concluded finally that i want to abolish all of my assumptions about ur feelings towards me unless there is need to do otherwise..
be free , its ur life . Remember Allah is always there aniwhere anitime. winks3 hehee.

the super sensitive yet super stiff,
ME :b