Untuk mu :)

^^

Bagaimana hendak mengerti cantik?
Tanya diriku senyum senyum
Jawapan yang ku sudah tahu lama dahulu
Cuma termain kerna jiwa ku nakal

Hatiku menyebut;
Cantik itu dari idea
Dan idea itu tidak zahir
Mengenal kehalusan bukanlah impresi pertama
Tentu jutaan teka teki dan jawapan   

Kemudian ku nampak mu
setelah ribuan impresi
sejak pertama dan kini
kecantikan mu susah kufahami

Aku yang bergerak teguh
Kini sedikit goyah dan celaru
Ekspresi mu buat ku kelu keliru
Ekstasi yang buat ku haru biru

Ku bagai terselam dalam lautan mimpi
Terbang dan tenggelam dalam hakikat yang sama
Semua akibat aura kehadiran mu ini
Jauh dekat tetap juga rasa bersama

Ku kata ku tak mahu jatuh dahulu
Tapi terjatuh ku kini dan berkali kali
Acap kali tersungkur pedih tidak terperi
Namun kau hadir mengubati hati ku
Bukti kau pemberian dari Ilahi

Ku cinta mu , oh cinta hati ku
Sucikan hati ku wahai permata hati ku
Kau cahaya , pemberian dari Ilahi
Moga Cinta ku pada mu suatu hidayah yang indah
  bukan lah istidraj yang menyeleweng yang membuta
 
inshaAllah




Terima kasih ya Allah swt dan juga
bidadari hati ku Nurdia Natasha kerna sudi menerima ku <3 ~

: )

fallen again

    ~  =)   ~

o little princess
my beloved of only
i watch u from afar
so far that i longed
but u lingers always
in this sacred garden
like beautiful butterfly 
in my puzzled hearts

o dearest of mine
let u play freely in this world
to see you getting far
to see you d forget
and how it hurts for every inch you and me
but i never bound you :)
never i would
and never i could
to put a string between us
due strings give scars
and for the love for me you
i will never hurt

o my lovely you
how my breath lack because of you
my focus blur never content
an ache of every time and places
hope prejudice and worriness
random lunacy that i commit
a sickness of delusional
you are the bane
yet you too the cure of all :)

i cared for you
i really do
and i promised my self
never i do
to let me regret
the care i for you
forever be

for only you i suffer
only you i smiled

^^

hehe ; )

i can be everywhere

if u want me to be : )

^^

pokok

Trees

 

he is still

strong and determined

he is unshakable

good willed and ever wise

he stood for life

aged and smile
and for their life he stood and smile

a generation consist generations

a thousand nest of new borne life

a thousand nourishment for all the life

compassionate he is

it is just part of a life cycle
He is what he is

He is old and alone

but overwhelm by kindness

for that

he do not wither

for that he do not falter
against the many unkind seasons

less the kindness that he knows are many

 the raindrops 

the sun and the soils

and sometimes bees and birds

a thousand friends

his serenity do overwhelms not?

every life do loves him

it is reasoned =)

he is the tree

the one and only

borne an acorn

now wise and friendly
ever be loved
solitude
yet deep in solidarity

Unik

no matter how different you would be now

you will return to the same end as we all be

Cantik

Beauty can only be recognized by time

; )

I'm so happy today : )

that

although im poor

i felt i am richer

and giving my smiles away ^^

hehe

emotions :)

A mirage is an illusion of something real.

You are here
And you are far away
You are an illusion
Yet you are not
it is confusing in reflection
there s no logic in the essence
u dont need it
but u think otherwise

The presence existed
yet is like fantasy
it is a projection
an unreal fatamorgana
it hurts more than piercing of  swords
but it is really nothing of  none
it made tears fell
where there is no reason for it

It is there to remind you
it s not here to let you go
it is there for you to think
it is not here to let you know

thus..

dont be tricked by a mind game
because ur mind sees what it wanted to see
Use your sense use the right eye
and you will smile
with a blissful cry

what of it
and what should be done
there is nothing nevermore
there s no where to run
You are the master
The pathfinder of your own lore
choose the right destiny
and do what had to be done

be the best for all the rest
be at best
the time never rest

^^

The sleepless nights

This is one of those sleepless nights
Where thoughts are no where near by
that the ceilings seems so far far away
and so many things tend to happen all at once

staring trough the red sky the night canvas
it's cold and the chills really stings
looking by that window
searching for a star that hides between the clouds
the dark trees really stood still
the fields so empty and looking more vast that usual
the lights from buildings a million dots
the earth's stars?then a simple smile

wondering am i the only one doing all this
enjoying and suffering..
..the solitude and the serenity
the world looks peaceful this way
when people are dreaming away from reality

my thoughts are away in reality
their thoughts are away in their dreams
is it so different?
both is harmless dont they? , i invite my smiles :)

it is late
and im too early
i better go to sleep

^^

; )

****

The sky is blue
it is so pretty
the moon is white
it is so pretty

Ur smiles are red
it is so pretty
ur face is pink
it is so pretty

ur love is hot
it is so pretty
ur smile is warm
it is so pretty

ur grace is astounding
it is so pretty
ur moves undeniable
it is so pretty

ur laughs a music
it is so pretty
ur voice a rainbow
it is so prety

what u do always is so pretty
what u emote always is so pretty
everything u do is so pretty
pretty is u is well define u
and always of always in my ugly hearts
u are n only u are
the u
are the most pretty =)

kucing2 kecil

*****

..kucing kucing yang kesejukan..
..di balik pohon2 sayu..
..mata mata yang berkaca kaca..
..guruh gempita mendayu dayu..

..menunggu ibu mereka..
..memanggil kesengsaraan..
..sembilu pelusuk hati mereka..
..jauh sebalik jerit hujan..

..kucing kucing yang kebuluran..
..menjadi tidak keruan..
..kelaparan jadi kerinduan..
..kesedihan jadi kekecewaan..

..masa masa yang berlalu..
..senyuman2 dan perasaan pilu..
..menunggu hidup tapi malu..
..menjadii kisah itu berlalu..

..tulang tulang yang kecil..
..di sebalik belukar itu..
..kasih2 yang terpencil..
..hilang dibunuhi masa lalu..

..kucing kucing masa lalu..
..kini kuat dan serba tahu..
..mengenal susah erti dunia..
..dewasa dengan segala kurnia..

*****

quote of the day :D

"kalau dalam hati dah terasa seperti ada taman, pagarilah ia dengan iman dan taqwa"

Requoted from a fren ; )

rumus ; )

hidup ini sangat komplikated dan kompleks. =)
bagaikan rumus matematik yang sangat berserabut

tapi setiap rumus boleh disimplified.

dan apabila rumus hidup ini disimplied sampai ketahap yang paling ringkas

rumus itu hanyalah terdiri dari hubungan antara kita dan Tuhan ;)

drowned

i run to you if you need me

run from u if u detest

run to u again if u need me

again from u if u detest


***

know that
ur sadness is my weakness
and ur hapiness is my pleasure
so
pls be sincere when asking
due i hate being used
but no matter what the burdens is
sincerity is a worthy transactions =)
and being used is the most lowest insults

you
pls understand the heart is fragile
pls understand it can be cold as blood iron
pls understand i do smile
while my heart do cry

:''(

pls be sincere of ur feelings
cuz my hearts always so blind
n
only for u i gone blind

***

floating thoughts ^^

***************



aku slalu ikot forum forum dan kadangkala masih juga suprise dengan respons pelbagai bagai karenah manusia . dalam hidup aku pun begitu. maklumlah elemen2 dalam stages hidup ku ni sungguh unik dan pelbagai.

aku pernah jumpa mereka yang agnostik , bencikan konsep kewujudan Tuhan . dan mereka yang menemui hidayah Ilahi dan sangat2 menghargainya bagaikan sang ikan bertemu air di gurun kering ,yakni para mualaf2.

aku pernah terjumpa manusia yang x mahu mengalah x hal telah dipatah kan argument mereka dengan bukti yang sahih. dan aku juga pernah terjumpa org yg taklid buta ,terang2 tidak guna akal logik serta bukti yang nyata.

aku pernah jumpa org yg nampak bijak tp rupanya pendek akal dan yang lain nampak selekeh tp panjang akalnya.

aku pernah jumpa rakan yang sangat setia dan hatinya mulia, pernah juga jumpa pengkhianat hati busuk.

aku pernah jumpa orang yg ske mengambil kesempatan tanpa rasa segan silu kerana merasa itu hak mereka mencuri harta orang, dan aku juga pernah terjumpa org yang tersenyum , muka sangat tenang ketika harta bendanya dirampas orang.

aku pernah jumpa orang yang hidup nya sangat susah tp hati nya sangat murah . juga terjumpa orang hartawan bongkak lemas dalam nikmat dunia.

aku pernah terjumpa super hartawan zuhud yang sgt sederhana kerana pakaian nya sangat tidak menarik dan "free". juga pernah berjumpa si miskin tetapi terlalu "metro" gayanya kerana hanyut dek arus kemodenan barat.

aku pernah jumpa orang yang hari2 tgk "zina mata". juga mengetahui siapa yang matanya selalu menangis kerana cinta kan Tuhannya.

aku kenal orang yg kembaranya ke serata dunia menolong orang. juga melihat ramai orang x mahu menolong saudara seislam dizalimi depan mata.

aku juga tahu org yg suke menyampaikan berita baik kepada rakan2 rapat tentang segala yang die tahu, juga tahu siapa yang kuat mengeji dibelakang kawan2 nya.

kadangkala aku tahu bende yang aku x perlu tahu , tanpa perlu mencari kerana ia bisa datang sendiri , mungkin juga sebenarnye aku perlu tp aku aku x tahu aku perlukanya.. Allah knows best akan sesuatu^^

dunia ni betol bermacam2 orang dan keadaan. dan siapalah aku untuk judge seseorang itu dan event2 tersebut, segalanya terlalu dynamic.

Ya Allah ya Tuhan ku, Engkau lah Tuhan segala mahkluk,Yang maha mulia lagi maha mengetahui segala. Jauhkan lah perasaan ria' dari hatiku dan jauh kan lah hati ku dari perbuatan yang melalaikan ku dari Mu.
Jadikan lah aku hamba Mu yang sentiasa mengingati Mu setiap minit setiap saat setiap waktu.

******************

^^

many years ago in a ward , sat me being warded due my kidney start to fail again for the 2nd time , so i need to stay there for a bout a week.
across my bed was an old man diagnosed by doctors saying that 1 of his lungs malfunctioned and the other one is failing ~ he was a heavy smoker during his younger age.

there s a commotion, there s been a death in the neighboring room. got so many relatives attending during his last breath. recitation of quran and everything b4 that.

as far as i can remember, there s 2 more death after that. i was walking around and catch glimpses on the deceased ~

of all that.. the weird thing is that .....i felt nothing.no remorse not sadness no nothing~
i wonder why~

=')

(=(=(=

.my current path of life.

.im goin to be an activist.

.gonna save people as much as i can.

.am gonna be poor and unpopular.

.but it is ockay.

.because my life is just between me and my God.

.and my God does not need money from me ^^ .

.God that provide me with everything to sustain as long as i strive for the best of me.

.thankful for it.

.i hope this path wont hurt people.

.i really hope so.


=)=)=)