^^

many years ago in a ward , sat me being warded due my kidney start to fail again for the 2nd time , so i need to stay there for a bout a week.
across my bed was an old man diagnosed by doctors saying that 1 of his lungs malfunctioned and the other one is failing ~ he was a heavy smoker during his younger age.

there s a commotion, there s been a death in the neighboring room. got so many relatives attending during his last breath. recitation of quran and everything b4 that.

as far as i can remember, there s 2 more death after that. i was walking around and catch glimpses on the deceased ~

of all that.. the weird thing is that .....i felt nothing.no remorse not sadness no nothing~
i wonder why~